Wednesday, February 24, 2010 | 12:14 AM
Okay, what exactly happened during the interview?
I bloody hell broke down infront of zaki and eunice!
How embarassing is that?!
I always appear to be a strong and independent lady to them, but i guess, they have stepped onto my weakness.
Zaki: what is your motivation in life?Sara: hmm,my dad.And i started to break down!
Don laugh okay cos i mean it!
Frankly speaking, for the O's, i did not do well to go to a polytechic.
I went to SIM and spent like 3k for the Foundation course.
Thank god, i passed the foundation and got into DMS.
however, i flung one of the module which is A.maths.
I need to pay $600 for this repeated module.
How the fuck am i gonna tell my dad that i have to pay more than half a thousand for not being hardworking enough?
Luckily, the god pitied me and dad, it let me striked 4D of $500 and i only took another $100 from dad.
How HENG is that!
Next, in Sem 2, i still flung my A.maths, without taking the exams.
Because the CA itself is already 50%, so no point taking the exams since i already flung the half of it.
I was terminated but i actually told my dad when the school is gonna start again which bloody hell, i have to let him know the truth!
When i broke the news to him, he replied a 'okay lor' instead of scolding me.
Look, i cried even more jia lat okay!
is like, i rather him fuck me upside down than just saying 'okay, it's alright.'
You know how depressed i was?
I felt so bad and remorseful for what i have done.
Not only these, i have actually done something really major to the extend that my dad was so ill and ignored me for a week.
He forgave me for whatever i do.
After the SIM issue, i worked for a year in OGP as a part-timer and being a slacker for another part-time.
After i decided to enter ITE, i told myself that i must make him realy proud and make sure, i will not disappoint him once more!
Thats why, i am so wanting to go Germany for the exchange programme to make him feel that, I have done something that others can't!
It's very big deal to me as i have never imagined myself going for an exchange programme to other country due to my academic and behaviour in school, thats why i was selected.
To me, i can lose everything but my dad.
I can kanna fuck upside down outside when working, i can let my SIC kao bei or screamed to the urge of crying and probably, feel real emo and super shagged after a full shift.
At the end of the day, the sight of seeing dad lying on the sofa watching tv and waited for me to return, made me feel that life isn't that bad.
I still have my dear family members to pamper me whenever i'm at home.
Erjie will talk to me and KB mum to me,
Bro in law will talk cock to me and trying to be funny,
mum will buy food for me and nags like no one's busniess,
the kids will make me angry for not finishing their means asap
and dad will talk many reasons to be which i don even wanna listen but can't talk back.
All these, really make me feel that i am still very lucky one hor!
You all may think i am talking nonsense but oh well, i believe many ladies out there, after what bullshits have happened to them in their external world, they will look for their parents especially fathers as they will be the ones protecting you forever.
Lucky for zaki to see the emotional side of me.
But i still feel so embararassed for breaking down in front of him!
Anyone but not him!
Shit lah, now when i talk to him, i must cover my face!
LBSSS lah.
I seriously hope this broke down won't affect my chances of going.
Anyway, now is pray hard only lor.
LBSsss lahhhh.
SVE mock tmr and i just reached home.
Geeee Geeeee
BANANESE.
